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 Saturday, November 15, 2008|10:50 PM
Bling Bling Bling ((: Hoho, sijia, I miss hanging out with you ehs! Today, went to clarke quey to have this ET zone event, Blingbling :D Will not say much as I'm too lazy to fill your in, I shall just upload picture!  W320 together picture.                              Loves.    I need a break from reailty, I'm repeating history. I'm trying so hard to smile. Thinking that when I smile, everyone will be equally as happy as me, thinking that I'll be happy too. But who am I to bluff? I come home everyday, looking at my blog. Well done sarah, you trick the crowd. I'm changing ever since 36281376198months. I'm trying to be as rebilious as I could to not let anyone hurt me. I'm trying to be rebilious so to prove to everyone that I'm not easy bullied? Why must I go till this stupid extend? I'm trying hard to fit in the crowd. But becase of not having the same vision,I can't clique in? I seriously hate myself for being like that. Even the closest to me is drifting and drifting. What more can I do? I hate my pride. I told myself never to trust people, i told myself to never tell people my secrets. I know it hurts me more, but it hurts me even more if my bestf is telling my secrets out. I'm protecting myself. I got enough confidence, but somethings just pull me down real hard. Whose there to pull me up when I fall? Some people are just gone..Everyone change, I change too.. Can I be given one more chance? I'm being child like now, I'm not myself. But can I be given one more chance with people supporting me? I'm not sad, I'm not depress. But I have a sot of feeling where everyone is against me. I don't want to backslide, Daddy, I really don't. I really want to serve you. One more chance, please. I can hardly catch my breath as the world spins, as my history is like that. My life is like a drama but I just want to have a calmful life. I have lots of bf's and fling's, but I just want someone to pei me through my darkest time, patting my head and cleaning away the tears on my cheeks. I just want someone to hug me through my deepest point of life. I don't want to get played, i want to have more self-worth. Please, let me go.. Don't make me a fool. Who knows what's going through me? Cause I'm tearing like shyt. xoxo 
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